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I backslid last week, joining the rest of the country in our patriotic duty of committing every deadly sin to commit in order to give thanks.

I'm not sure this counts as backsliding as I've always been the queen of double entendre, but I had the best time watching A Dirty Shame with some of my friends this weekend during a study break. Hailing as one of the weirdest John Waters movies that I have ever seen, it boasts many awesome Baltimore landmarks and memories of controversy around the time it was filmed. After seeing it you'll wonder if you've hit your head and slipped into another dimension.

First there were the pies. Oh the pies. And cakes. In the last week I’ve had orange cake, an éclair, pumpkin pie, cherry pie, mince pie, éclair pie. I’ve had countless Hershey’s Kisses, Almond Joys, Snickers, Reese’s Pieces, Tootsie Rolls, Juju Bees, sodas, ice creams, popsicles … not to mention stuffing, potatoes, turkey, crab cakes … I think I ate enough food for one month and it was incredible.

Back in first grade we learned the difference between needs and wants, and in psychology we learned about Maslow's Hiearchy of Needs.Technically nowhere on this list is any of the items I've pinned on my board.

None of this is on my pinterest! (Stolen from Wikipedia)

No diamond or gemstone rings, no foofy dresses, no decorations, no sumptuous meals or experiments. However dreaming of what I don't need fulfills my creativity and spontaneity needs, so perhaps I'm not being greedy when I'm buying yet another pair of shoes, silly necklace, or personalized deck of cards with my chosen photograph printed on them.

And exercise? I can’t remember the last time I did a pushup before today. Earlier I completed only 9 out of my goal of 55 pushups and I felt like I was winded and going to die of death. Cardio-wise I’m still very strong, but I could work out more, definitely. hen I got sick I grew into a habit of sitting on my duff and doing nothing. It was awesome to loaf and recover. Well I have recovered and I am super-behind in school and in my weight loss goals.

The thing about weight loss is that I don’t care. If I am fat, then so what? If I am thin, cool, but I don’t need to be thin to be happy. I just don’t care. I look good whether I am fat or thin. What do I care about? Being healthy and feeling good. I have a lot of things I want to get done and I can’t do them if I’m wallowing around and eating crap. I have no desire to have strokes, diabetes, heart disease, colon cancer, or osteoporosis.

Greg and I were on a date at the Cheesecake Factory (more gula!) and were seated by a table with this blonde Snooki look-a-like who was yammering on about the most tedious subjects. Loudly. When she got to her tanning regimen, I wanted to throw butter at her. Skin cancer runs in my family rampantly and while a little bit of sun is awesome I believe there is no excuse for endulging in the tanning bed. There is just nothing more stupid to me than this.

I found the most awesome and hilarious engagement ring website. On Ring Envy women and men share photos and deets on their large diamond or gemstone rocks for others to click "envy." Whosoever collects the most envies wins. However, some of these rings are just grotesque, and the hatefully catty comments jealous readers leave are hysterical.

I also found a new love for a shoe known as Fluevogs.I WILL HAVE ALL THE MONEY AND BUY ALL THE FLUEVOGS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER! BAH!

I could talk about how superior I feel to others who do stupid things like tan or buy grotesque engagement rings. Or I could share yet more photo projects I worked on Shutterfly. Those things are boring to others after a while though so I thought I'd share a nice photo of the other meaning of pride:

(Stolen from Cheezburger)

I take pride that I done stole found me a pride! Woo!

To get back on track, I have a plan! SEVEN DEADLY PLANS. OOOOOOH.
1. Politeness-To keep from being lewd and distasteful, I will try to burp more quietly and say excuse me. What?

2. Low-carb-I am back on the low-carb bandwagon until actual Christmas parties or actual Christmas day. Wait until a real celebration to enjoy something sweet.

3. Buy presents for others. I have a really bad habit of using all of these shopping deals for myself. Share the wealth!

4. Workout Plan-4 Key moves to do 55 times, 3 days a week: Jumping Jacks, squats, push-ups, and crunches. Walk for the other days.

5. ROAD RAGE-For every stupid holiday driver I flip off, honk at, or yell at I will say five nice things about them to counteract it.

6. Make a Christmas List--Put to bed feelings of wishing and hoping and just ask for what I want!

7.KITTIES--We hope to be getting a kitty for Christmas. This means running by the lease office, filling out paperwork, and doing all the stuff one needs to do to adopt a kitty from a shelter.

I think that's it. I've come up with the deadliest list ever, and nothing else possibly more deadly could be added to it. OR CAN IT?
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I have become greatly involved in organizing my photos. I have finished my photobook and am ready to order it. I do kind of wish I could put one or two more photographs in it of Greg and I. We have two Polaroids of us posing with celebrities in New York a few years ago that would be pretty neat to add to my New York page.

Strengths Finder

I'm slowly, slowly recovering from being sick but sometimes I'm still really tired and other times really full of anxiety. It's weird that my body cannot tell the difference sometimes between the emotions I have. I'll get this fluttering of emotion and freak out because I don't know where its coming from. Is it panic or is it joy or am I just hungry or do I have gas? My body is like WTF I CANNOT EVEN WITH THIS.

Despite all of these issues, I've been getting decent grades in school. So there's that. Sometimes it only feels like my life is falling apart when really it's just neatly balanced the way I always wanted it and I'm constantly on the verge of tipping.

At church we've been doing in-depth analysis to find out who we are and what our strengths are. All of this self-analysis will eventually lead to deciding what our members should do within the church, but it is also helpful in other areas of life such as employment and relationships. I found out I'm a collector of information, obsessed with ideas, and energized by meeting new people. My talent is researching, basically. I could turn this into a strength and develop it, but the funny thing I learned last night was that talents can have negative associations as well. I may collect information, but I also have a tendency to hoard belongings. I may be awesome at finding problems and solving them, but could also lead to excessive analysis and anxiety if not directed effectively.

Anyway, Strengths Finder was very helpful for me and those at my church. I am pretty excited to develop what I already have instead of merely trying to fix my weaknesses.
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I've been meaning to write more often and interact with my readers as well. I've been dealing with a blood pressure medication change that has left me completely wiped out.  This is in addition to other illness I have suffered in the last month.


Well I’m better now (or I will be … eventually) and I need to get my act together. I have a final 30 lbs to lose. I have two papers I need to finish by Thanksgiving. I have a couple parties this month as well. My apartment needs a complete overhaul in cleaning, and I need to take care of myself better.


November Goals


Get down to 170 lbs. I got really close in October before all of my health problems mixed with some pretty bad eating habits caused me to gain back a little bit of my weight.


Get back to induction eating. I feel better when I’m not ODing on sugar and dairy. I breathe better and feel less sluggish.


Walk 20 minutes to one hour each day. This is something that has always kept me on track. As much as I’d like to do it 60 minutes in a row, I know that I can break it up into smaller segments and still reap benefits. On the two days during the week that I have class I end up walking 20-30 minutes just from going back and forth to my car. I will resume walking on my fifteen minute breaks each day. On days I don’t have class, what is stopping me from walking around the parking lot for an hour before heading home? Then on weekends I can wake up and walk for an hour. I can totally do this!


Do 1 20 minute strength/flexibility exercise per day.  I have all of these ten minute abs or ten minute thighs tapes at home and on Xfinity on Demand just waiting for me to start them. I don’t need to kill myself to maintain bone density.


Do homework for two hours each night. I am really behind in my reading for school and I have two papers due in the next month that I’ve barely done research for. I have no excuse to lie around and do nothing with this kind of workload. However, most nights when I come home, all I feel like doing is eating and falling asleep. I’m hoping that taking care of myself in other ways will give me the energy to complete my assignments.


Declutter for 15 minutes a day. This is more than doable. Take five minutes to clear off surface areas that are cluttered, and ten minute to declutter. has a great routine for doing this.


I think that’s a good start. Now I know where I want to be, the question is how do I get there?


Hi!. I'm Jen, fiance to Greg, college student, and future crazy cat lady. I love makeovers, decorating, collecting random facts, trivia, playing show and tell, camp movies, shopping, libraries, random singing, random dancing, snuggling, and loafing. Oh, and watching Glee.

Greg has been my partner in crime for nine years. I've known him since high school; he is my soulmate and best friend. He's an actor, a playwright, a poet and works in data entry. We spend most of our time laughing hysterically. We're thinking about getting married sometime this decade and adopting our first cat sometime in the next few weeks.


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